Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Feeling slightly weak as i'm punching these words in... i had a day surgery yesterday. Totally nerve wrecking for me. No biggie you might say, but it definitely mattered a whole lot to me, as the idea of having foreign objects cutting into my body didn't seem very appealing. But of course, the post effects of having the operation proved to be really satisfying...how can it not be? So much TLC, and not to mention, no household chores need to be done by me personally. Heh!

*************************************************************************************************
I feel warm all over just to have him tell me how lucky he feels to have me by his side. Life has never been sweeter...


Lady Syl scribbled at 6:52 PM 0 comments


Tuesday, July 19, 2005

I've gotten my second pair of roller blades (courtesy of bong) over my approaching 23 years of living. However, sad to say, i've lost the momentum to blade, considering that i could do it pretty well during my secondary school days. Gosh, i really need to practise it more often, even turning 360 degrees poses as a major challenge for me.

Thank goodness, all is well for my exams last semester. Trust me, that i was almost having a serious case of a nervous breakdown as i was online checking my results and praying for the love of God to grant me a decent grade. And for the thousandth time, i wish classes won't start, just the thought of having to cramp for my assignments and tests while working seriously irks me. I can't wait till the day i graduate! Then i'm gonna have a real good break...and i mean a REAL good break...

The full blown stress from work is here, and i can't believe how unbelievably fatigue i feel. By night fall everyday, there's literally no ounce of energy left in me. I feel like a walking zombie, just looking forward to bed time. Being pressed by managers everyday for resumes is not something that's pleasent when the resume bank is drying up, not to mention, the usual paper works that i have to do everyday. The thought of yelling to the managers to get off my back definitely seems tempting, but...sonovabitch! I can't without risking my livelihood.

I think i need to get one of those squeeze balls thingy where i can press and knead or punch for that matter, each time i feel that i've had it to my throat. God knows, i might just puncture the whole thing within a day or two(and attempt to use that deflated thing to slap which ever manager's face who tries to pressurize me).

"If its sanity you're after, there is no recipe like laughter" Henry Elliot


Lady Syl scribbled at 3:04 PM 0 comments


Thursday, July 07, 2005

My cousin Sean messaged me a while ago to ask if i was free to meet up over some drinks... i was insensitive initially and told him tat it was kinda late and tat i needed to wake up early tomorrow for work. But i soon snapped out of it and realise tat it wasn't normal for him to ask me out tat late in the night, especially not during weekdays.

Sean is having some problems tat is apparently making is life miserable. I began to miss my cousin really much even though we were living just diagonal blocks away. It was my turn to ask him out to meet up, and told him tat i really didn't mind the late nite, but he had made an appointment with his friend.

Sean has always been a close cousin to me, even though we don't always meet up over drinks. But whenever we bump into each other, we never fail to have some meaningful chats...be it about studies or just life in general. Not to mention, he's always helping me to borrow DVDs from where he works, for free! He even bothers to walk all the way to my block just to pass them to me... wat can i say, he's a great cousin.

It probably helps tat we are of the same age, therefore communication and sharing is easy. This reminds me of one of the days where i rushed down to NUS after work to meet up with him to study for my exams together with him. Not tat we were studying the same subject, but rather, we needed company and motivation. We had a really great time chatting all the way back home, and tat's also when i got to know Sean even more than i already do.

Something serious must have had happened... Sean has always been a cheerful person.... he has never sounded more depressed, and I'm worried...


Lady Syl scribbled at 11:23 PM 0 comments


Sunday, July 03, 2005

Gosh... my next phase of stress is coming right back again. This time, its definitely more than what i had experienced in the past few months. So i might sound all suicidal again, just don't mind me and leave me to wallow in self pity when the time comes.... I'm just really afraid that i might decide to give it all up when i decide to break down. I know i lost some weight during my stressful period around march and april, i haven't properly recouperated, but its coming all over again like a fresh wave. Don't be surprised if you'll catch me one day walking along the streets with a hollow face and basically looking like a bag 0f bones. Not only that, i've now gotten the horrible gastric since i started my new job, i pray that it won't get worst... yeah, all for the sake of a better future.... what kinda crap is that?!

I've recently been assigned to be in charge of not only non-IT related positions, but IT positions as well. Great...like i'm well versed in IT.... I know nuts about it, but i have to pretend to look all intelligent while interviewing the candidate. I might just end up speaking programming language with you the next time we meet. Sigh... never mind, i'll just take up the challenge and see how it goes...

Oh i really can't take my eyes off my new conquests during the retail therapy that i had yesterday. I've been looking at them the whole day and still didn't get sick of it. A blouse that i bought from Mango at a really good deal, a blouse from Far East Plaza, and my virgin purchase of a long string of pearl necklace! I noticed that pearl accessories are really "in" right now, and decided to get me one, and how i really love it! Sigh, i have really got to practice abstaining from spending more money on such unnecessities, but then again, since the GSS started, i haven't shopped at all!

Gonna go for a tennis session later... it has been quite some time since i last touched tennis. I'm quite sure that i have lost the momentum, but i'm gonna try to pick it up again. I really wanna pick up roller blading again as well. I roller bladed pretty often during my secondary school years, but after the roller blades got spoilt by my then irritating tuition teacher, i haven't practised roller blading since then. Its settled, i'll go purchase a new pair of roller blades.

"The only kind of dignity which is genuine is that which is not diminished by the indifference of others" Dag Hammarskjold


Lady Syl scribbled at 1:30 PM 0 comments

FactS Of AbsoLuTelY Me...

Who am I: Sylvia Liu

My favourite places:
Mei Chin Primary School
Broadrick Secondary School
Nanyang Polytechnic
Curtin University of Technology

Horoscope: Libra - Scorpio

Favourite colour: Yellow

Interests: Books, Greek mythologies, movies, shopping, hair, travelling, clarinets, salsa dance, Human Resources, Psychology, dogs

Location: Singapore

Family culture: My family and relatives practise kissing on cheeks and hugging. Some may find it weird, or tat we are too "ang-moish", but tat's how we express love.

Character: Wateva u perceive me to be... I shouldn't be praising myself, nor should I be condemning myself either

Wat else:
A gurl who may look aloof and reserved to u initially, but after the warm up session is over, will turn into a talkative person tat u may not be able to tolerate eventually. Turns uncontrollably into a replica of an alien when provoked(close friends and family members can vouch for tat). A narcissist...a nostalgic person...Absolutely affectionate to my chums, and hope tat my feelings are reciprocated...but i know they are, cos i have a bunch of alter egos tat have left wonderful footprints in my life(u know who u are).