Thursday, September 30, 2004
Phew! This whole week has been really packed! Not becos i have classes and all tat, in fact for these 2 weeks, there were no classes, due to a clash in schedules. But its becuz i've been going out almost everyday, except for Monday, where i stayed home and sulked becuz of a certain issue which has been solved (yay!).
Yesterday i met up with my poly mates for a gathering. It was a really great one i must say... i have not met up with them for wat seems like ages, and i'm glad most of us turned up! Its pretty amazing how all of us still remain as friends till now, cos we only got to know each other during attachment in school. Which was jus for a mere 6 months. Except for one of them who was my classmate, the rest are people tat i only really got to know during the 2nd and 3rd round of my attachment. Its really great cuz all of us cliqued really well, and became fast friends... we did projects together, shopped together, movies and all tat. And well...we were always the noisiest bunch of gals, cuz we were always cracking silly jokes... To some people, maybe we might seem like people who were attention seeking, but nah... its jus tat the jokes and the crappiness of all of us makes us laugh really hard..and basically we jus don't bother about how others see us...
Well all of us are working now... and we have our own commitments as well, some of us are also studying.... we tend to be more busy and may not be able to meet as often as we would like to... but i guess, we still do make an effort to try to compromise on time... and each time we meet up, i would say, i always have fun! =p Its great to catch up and basically chill together... it will be great if we can remain friends always....
Yesterday after dinner, one of the gals suggested tat we take neo print pics... and i think i will remember this neo print taking session at least for a super long time... we were really posing like crazy, and changing backgrounds, and there were loads of shuffering of feet, cuz we were like trying out different positions... Basically the 5 of us spent $16 to take these neo prints, becuz the first round was a complete failure due to our ignorance on how to operate the machine, haha! Well, its okie, we learnt it eventually and decided to retake it...and yeah, the photos did turn out quite well! Haha....
Okies, tonite, going out again, cuz Bong has a gathering with his army buddies, and they are all taking their gfs along... thank goodness i know quite a number of couples there, so i won't feel weird... gonna go to Marche at Heeren, BUT.... i'm having a
sore throat now... -_-"' How am i gonna eat my ever favourite Calamari??!! My saliva is like drooling already.... never mind, i'll use this logic, "yu du gong du", which simply means fight poison with poison....jus waiting to savour those sotongs tonite!!
Oh yeah guess wat... i'm also going out on friday nite...gonna go catch Resident Evil with Bong and gang, Ailin will be going too (yay!).... come weekend... think i'm jus gonna be a good girl and stay at home, take a breather, as well as
do my assignment!
I'm feeling HAPPY! =D
"Friendship makes prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it" Cicero (106 BC - 43 BC)
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3:48 PM
Monday, September 27, 2004
Some men are jus too insensitive for words....i rest my case...
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4:05 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
Shirley Shirley Bo Berly, Banana Fana Fo Ferly, Fe Fi Mo Merly...Shirley! Think most of u should remember this as the Name Game song rite... pretty interesting i must say... this song suddenly occured to me, cos a good friend of mine was looking for a suitable english name for herself... and we were like going through the list of names we can find on the internet. I saw some names tat i felt were really quite unique... and i was thinking... hmmm...maybe i should have a change of name, after being known as Sylvia for the past 22 years of my life..
My dad was so bent on naming me Sylvia?and I wonder why? As a young gal? I was always so fed up with people or friends who couldn't
pronounce my name properly, or at least acceptably... so I would often blame my parents for naming me Sylvia. Worse still... I didn't like my Chinese name too... in fact till now I still don't. They wanted to name me Huiyu initially, but decided against it, cuz the fortune - teller told me tat "yu" which means "Jade" was not suitable, and therefore not good... resulting in my name now... sigh... However I grew to like the name "Sylvia" eventually...
I dunno if it's feasible to change... I think none of my friends would ever be used to calling me by the new name... they would go "Syl! Oops! I forgot you have a new name"... Haha...Its like so
crapadeedodade... =P
I'm attracted to the names: Cheyenne, Shaelyn, Lindsay, Jadyn, Lauryn. Hee...I know my friends will end up protesting tat its not me at all... and tat I should jus stick to Sylvia... I can almost hear them exclaiming "Syl!! Don?t be a twit!!" But it's all a matter of some getting use to rite??? =p Anyways, this is jus a thot...
anybody care to comment please??? The blog is getting quiet!! Haha... for all you know, the next time you see me, you might be addressing me by my new name! Hmmm... I'm beginning to laugh at tat thot... Come to think of it, I may not even get used to it myself! Imagine me informing everyone...
"Hi everybody, from now onwards, my name is no more Sylvia, please address me as Cheyenne. And I won't acknowledge anyone who still insists on calling me Sylvia. You have been warned, thank you and have a great day!"
Yeah yeah I'm a twit, I know... =p
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1:56 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Feeling a little down today... not really sure why though... but never mind... i'm sure after a good sleep later...things will turn to normal again... at least i hope... I was being asked why i sounded so "sian" on the phone, but nah...i really have no idea...so decided against trying to explain anything... No point transmitting my black mood to anyone else...
(Chants 3 times in my head...sound cheerful..sound cheerful...sound cheerful). Anyway, finally got the
Keane CD i have been pining and hoping for (yay!)... titled,
Hopes and Fears. I must comment tat its good! They are definitely an up and rising band... their music to me...is unique... I think to me, the best time to listen is when i'm alone..cooped up in my room... brooding over dunno wat...
Got a reminder from Jia to think of my wishlist, haha... yeah i seriously needa do some shopping, i went out these 2 days, but only managed to get 2 blouses...
desperately need shoes, cuz all the ones i have now are breaking apart...nope, i'm not kidding, and its definitely not an excuse to stock up on them... and like wat Jia often said...keep them as "cold storage". But i have been like wearing the few pathetic pairs for like the longest time... *sulks*
Think i better hit the pillows now... i'm like rambling on and on... typing loads of
nonsensical stuffs... needa clear my mind...tomorrow...yes...maybe tomorrow... tomorrow might be good to blog...at least i hope...
"I am the righteouness of God in Christ"
Lady Syl scribbled at
11:31 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Sylvia October/22/1982 Female
You are Brown Monkey, who can show great consideration for those around you, and can act promptly and effectively. Although you may show tense nervousness, you try hard never to lose your dignity.You have strong ego, and you are very sure and confident about yourself. Although you look gentle, you can be strong minded. You also possess inquiring mind, that is greater than any other person.You keep your every day frustration and anger inside, and blow it all at once. You should not keep your frustration inside, but talk and interact with people. You are intelligent person, and acts quickly. You have a talent in creating and coming up with new ideas.You are a very passionate person.You are good at give and take tactics. You can act without hesitation, so you would be good as a leader. You are rather competitive, and your character is like that of a man. You may make a wrong move by relying too much on your instinct, and not taking into consideration the circumstance.You should be careful not to make the means turn into aims. Your effort and will is thought highly of, but if you get too heated up, you may lose your momentum.You will be successful if you can leave a room in your heart. Even after you get married, your attention may be set outside your house.
Jus a little test i took out of boredom... some facts are true..some are not... if u really wanna know, u gotta discover them yourself! Ha! Okies...i gotta go on with my mobid life now... after tomorrow... all hell breaks loose! =p K i'm jus disillusioning myself...i still have assignments...sigh...
"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones" Proverbs 17:22
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11:49 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Thinking...thinking...about how working life
sux... working and studying at the same time
sux even more... well wat can i say...i'm jus not cut out to be an administrative staff...but oh wat the hell...gotta bear with it for at least another 3 months or so... sigh... thinking of taking my bonus and run!! Haha...actually nah...jus wanna see if i can cope for my next semester, if not...i may jus consider taking a part time job instead...and concentrate more on my studies...
Was reminisicing about secondary school life.... so carefree then...and the only stress was how to score well in exams... oh well...tat's besides the point... i was thinking back on my days when i was a quarter mistress in the military band... all thanks to Hueyling for "recruiting" me in... but seriously, i enjoyed my role, cos i get to scream at people who refuse to keep their instruments as quickly as their hands and feet can move, holler at them for damaging their instruments... curse and swear at fellow band mates for needing new rigs, new parts, new wateva (do u believe tat?)...having to be the one to lock the damn-hard-to-lock- instrument room door... My clarinet was like my prized possession...each time i had to change to another clarinet, my heart was like breaking into pieces*sobz* Its like jus when i'm starting to build a "loving relationship" with my clarinet, it gets taken away from me... boohoo!
I love music...i always have since i was a young kid, imagine me appreciating Michael Jackson, Madonna, Rod Stewart, Debbie Gibson at the tender young age of like 4?? Thinking back, i'm kinda amused myself.... Was in the Recorder Group in primary school, following with the military band in sec school... maybe i should have persued my interest in music... like learning the piano, violin, and be like the cool Vanessa Mae! I've always envied friends who can play the piano... i think its a really elegant musical instrument! Speaking of piano, my ex classmate, Melvyn is wonderfully talented! He doesn't need to attend music classes, to play a piece on the piano....woohoo! Way to go Mel!
Continuation on band... will always remember the days where all of us had to bake our heads in the scorching sun while marching...to practise for competitions... Boy it wasn't an easy task! Not to mention, we had our instruments with us... my thumb nearly turned crooked cos of tat... hey the clarinet gets mysteriously heavier each minute okie!! Plus a step wrong, means start from the beginning again... all these foot drills got me ridiculously dark then... haha...my mum was getting worried! But all in all...i really enjoyed the couple of years where i participated in the band, as a whole, we were united in a way...tat can sometimes be a lil' surprising! =p
Oh yeah the downside of being a senior in the band, tat is u had to guide your juniors...whom i really don't give a damn... cos they kinda get onto my nerves!! Will never forget this gal, if i'm not wrong, her name is Siewling... she kept laughing while my friends and i were desperately trying to get some tune into her brains... not forgetting her long fringe tat falls into her face perpetually, cos she simply refuses to pin it back... imagine the temptation i had to snip it off?? I had this serious urge to throw her down from the second level and jus get her outta my sight! Mean ain't I?? *Evil laughter* Basically, i think wat matters to her most was to attract Shihkai, my then Taiwanese classmate with the dimples tat apparently, gals except me were drooling over...Rite, and i'll not forget the fact tat becos he had trouble pronouncing my english name...he jus called me "Sofy".... have u started linking this to the sanitary pads yet?? ---- Wat the hell???!! I resigned to fate.....
Okies.... needa go have my dinner now...am starving!! And i can't afford to loose more weight!
"No quotes for today"
Lady Syl scribbled at
7:36 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Don't seem to know her tat much anymore.... Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same... Never mind, its not my life.... i can only do so much to talk to her and tell my my opinions... ultimately, she makes the decisions...
On a lighter note, took a break from studying last nite, went to Bugis to meet up with my mum, and my ever favourite cousins, auntie and uncle. As i was the first one to reach Bugis yesterday, i shopped around by myself, and got mysteriously attracted to a bag, haha...bought it of cos...Purpose of yesterday's gathering was to celebrate both my aunt's and uncle's birthday, which is only like 10 days apart... So we went to the 7 Storey Hotel Steamboat to have a feast. And i must admit, tat the steamboat really tastes good! And the Hainanese chicken seemed to taste even better than the popular chicken rice chain outlets tat are much hyped up....But i should comment, tat its really pretty expensive... Anyway, Auntie Maria bought a heart shaped cake from Fourleaves, and the cake looked so cute! Its really sweet to see my aunt and uncle so loving till now... =p I especially love this aunt of mine, cos she took care of me when i was young, and she kept feeding me with cheese tat i became so chubby, haha, but luckily, not now... anyway, i had loads of fun! I always do, when i'm with my closest cousins...
Anyway managed to get home on time to catch the final episode of FRIENDS...my all time favourite! Its really so sad tat there won't be more of them anymore... wat can i say, i'm a sentimental person... I'll miss them... Its so heartwarming to see that the bond between these close bunch of friends remain so strong till now... sometimes i do ponder if it does happens in reality.... with interests and perceptions between friends changing and all.... well, i can only sit here and ponder, and see wat happens next...
Lastly, i'm touched tat Bong made an effort to come to my house, even though he was really tired , and it was really late... =p K...i'm kinda jaded now...
"The more things change, the more they remain....insane." - Michael Fry & T.Lewis
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9:49 AM
Monday, September 13, 2004
Ever wondered how everybody around u changes so fast?? Well, sometimes i get overwhelmed by the fact tat its really hard to keep up... well i guess, as people grow, perceptions change as well. Its like if u asked them a question 5 years ago, and if u asked them the same question again now, their answers can be completely different, tat u wonder if they are the same person, or u jus wish tat you can knock the imposter outta them...*imagine myself with a mega huge hammer head tat u see in cartoons, knocking that person on his/her head* Things can go to the extend tat as tat person speaks, u can jus stare at him/her in disbelieve... therefore i feel tat this song by Keane is real:
Everybody's Changing - Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
Anyway, things are looking more positive for me now tat i have sorted out my thoughts...told u tat they can be auto sorted rite? To the friends who are concerned for me, i jus wanna say THANKS! But i'm fine... =p Rite now, i'm itching to go shopping, tat's it man, after 17/9/04.... i'm hiting the malls!
Sigh, i'm suffering from a mega huge ulcer in my mouth...never knew tat an ulcer can be so antagonizing! Today is slightly better...but the last few days were terrible! It was so bad tat i've got problems eating...so meal times were torturing when people around me can eat with ease, while i try to nibble at my food, in agony... worse thing is i can only eat using the right side of my mouth...*sobs* Okie...people have been telling me tat its cos i have insufficient sleep...blame it on my exam!! Haha...well...like wat Jia said, i should be thankful i have only 1 module... but man...its only for this semester, come december, think i'm gonna turn into a hermit... k looks like i'm beginning to sound more and more like Hueyling the COMPLAIN QUEEN! *gasp* I need my beauty sleep...*sulks*
Alrite...i feel like dyeing my hair... but have no idea wat colour to dye, plus i'm also thinking if i should DIY....anybody have any recommendations on the brand or colour?? My colour is getting stale...haha...or is it jus me?? Gosh! Look at the length of my blog! K shall stop here for now... kudos!
"I feel within me a peace above all earthly dignities, a still and quiet conscience" William Shakespeare
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2:00 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Life seems to be in a dire state for me now... i feel so screwed up... so lost... the feeling is so indescribable... its jus totally in the pits for me... don't wanna elaborate more... jus feel tat i needed to release some stress tat's in me... Maybe i jus need some time to sort things out slowly... think things through... and maybe everything will be auto sorted out by then...
Decision making has never been an easy task, if only my future has been beautifully planned for me, and i jus need to follow the path laid out in front of me... these few days have been like roller coaster rides... with emotions running high and low... in fact, i feel tat i shouldn't be stressed out over minor issues..but somehow...uncontrollably, i jus do... maybe i should jus push everything to the back of my head, and jus say "HECK!" Friends have been asking me recently, like why i seem stressed, well, yeah apart from my exam stress... there seem to be lots of other things tat ignites my thought... oh man... i need a carefree life...
I haven't been able to sleep well recently... there's gotta be something wrong... don't think i'm having insomnia, this seems unexplainable... maybe even when i'm trying to fall asleep...sub consciously, lots of things are running through my head... God...think my brain needs to be taken out of my head and washed thoroughly! Looks like i'm having another crazy bout of depression... someone seriously have to book an appointment with a psychaiatrist for me... I'm having some mental problems! *Gasp* And the worse thing is...think my eye bags can contain all the animals on board Noah's Ark! K...now i need an extreme makeover...
"God will load your world with flowers. He hand delivers a bouquet to your door every day. Open it! Take them! Then, when rejections come, you won't be left short petaled" Max Lucado
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11:48 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
This is a story tat i took from my cousin, Merleen's blog. Think its really touching, and i hope you like it...enjoy!
Jesus in My Heart
Tomorrow morning," the surgeon began, "I'll open up your heart..." "You'll find Jesus there," the boy interrupted. The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll cut your heart open," he continued, to see how much damage has been done..." "But when you open up my heart, you'll find Jesus in there," said the boy. The surgeon looked to the parents, who sat quietly. "When I see how much damage has been done, I'll sew your heart and chest back up, and I'll plan what to do next." "But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The Bible says He lives there. The hymns all say He lives there. You'll find Him in my heart." The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell you what I'll find in your heart. I'll find damaged muscle, low blood supply, and weakened vessels. And I'll find out if I can make you well." "You'll find Jesus there too. He lives> there." The surgeon left. The surgeon sat in his office, recording his notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta,damaged pulmonary vein, widespread muscledegeneration. No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.Therapy: painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, " here he paused, "death within one year." He stopped the recorder, but there was more to be said. "Why?" he asked aloud. "Why did You do this? You've put him here; You've put him in this pain; and You've cursed him to an early death. Why?" The Lord answered and said, "The boy, My lamb, was not meant for your flock for long, for he is a part of My flock, and will forever be. Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and will be comforted as you cannot imagine. His parents will one day join him here, and they will know peace, and My flock will continue to grow." The surgeon's tears were hot, but his anger was hotter. "You created that boy, and You created that heart. He'll be dead in months. Why?" The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb, shall return to My flock, for He has done his duty: I did not put My lamb with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve another lost lamb." The surgeon wept. The surgeon sat beside the boy's bed; the boy's parents sat across from him. The boy awoke and whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?" "Yes," said the surgeon. "What did you find?" asked the boy. "I found Jesus there," said the surgeon.
"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life" Revelation 21:6
Lady Syl scribbled at
5:11 PM
Feeling panicky...catching the jittery spells... feeling the much forgotten anticipation of the exams... gotta start mugging... Time... no time... wondering if i can ever take in everything through osmosis... or by sleeping using the book as a pillow.... gotta breathe easy...slowly...steady... no panicking... relax... gotta get a hold on myself...i'll do fine... I'll get through this... everything else will have to wait... at least after 17/9/04, which happens to be my dad's birthday... oh yeah, gotta go to the Garden of Remembrance....hmm... wonder if he's gonna give me his blessings from above and help his daughter with this paper... *grins* I can almost hear him reprimanding me... telling me to be
DETERMINE, and
FOCUS...okie okie dad...i hear u... *sulks*
Was stunned when i received the email...was even more stunned when i got the reading materials.... i jus couldn't believe tat their so called "fast pace", means really fast, tat i wonder if i can catch up at all... okie guys, be prepared to see Sylvia with extra dark eye rings, extra bulging eye bags, extra tired looking face...expect to see me yawn most of the time due to insufficient sleep, as it is, i'm already yawning as i'm typing out this entry... *yawn* Don't blame me if i don't seem attentive when u are telling me something... cos of my excessive yawning... but i'll try to focus, really.... at least hopefully....*yawn*
"Strike a balance between reality and ideal"
Lady Syl scribbled at
11:06 AM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Time is crawling today...not good...not good... feeling like my face is looking like sh*t...not good...not good... Am feeling like the ugliest, and most hideous looking person in the world....not good...not good... been feeling awefully tired and lethargic, like there's not a single ounce of life in me...not good...not good... haven't been sleeping well...not good...not good... spotted a red and painful zit today, DARN! Not good...not good... been loosing weight...not good...not good...been worrying...not good...not good...need to relax...unwind... need to fall into slumber... need shopping therapy....need lots and lots of money... not good...not good... Need to drift away into the never ending waters in the big ocean... need to feel peace....need to feel calm... Need to loose myself in solitude...Need HIM... need HIM to tell me everything's alrite... need confidence... need to work out... need to immerse my face into my books.... haven't been doing tat... not good, not good... need a change in environment... need to loose myself into the wilderness...need to get up on my feet and do something constructive.... need a new life....yes...tat would be good....
" Wake me up inside, call my name and save me from the dark, bid my blood to run, before i come undone, save me from the nothing I've become, Bring me to life" Evenescence - Bring me to Life
Lady Syl scribbled at
3:27 PM
